After reading pet's post, I must say I'm shocked. It's been three months since we had a plain jane vanilla romp. We were talking tonight while she looked over some of these blogs and I think that a few things deserve explaining.
We met my Sophomore year of undergrad. She was a virgin and I was by no means at all a virgin. I had just gotten out of a three month relationship and was basically running around like a jack rabbit and hooking up with several women. When I met her though, for some odd reason, I was at a total loss for words. Usually I'm very talkative, charismatic, and a real charmer. When we met this was not the case. She was (And still is, well, the first two anyway) beautiful, smart, and innocent. Very shy as well, an introverted girl. This was the opposite of me. I was a premed prick so to speak. Far from innocent both in the bedroom and outside of it (I got into my share of bar fights and other bad behavior being a die hard member of the NYC punk scene when not studying day and night). She was to me both a challenge and possibly a saving grace. I was the first person she ever had sex with. Our sexual relationship slowly morphed as I introduced her to D/s and bondage. She admitted they had been unexplored fantasies of hers. They were fantasies I'd not only had but had been researching at length for years. Sure I tried light bondage with a few partners, but I never trusted them as much as I trusted her and vice versa.
Why am I explaining all this? Well tonight's discussion and many of our serious discussions relating to how deeply we wish to explore all this usually consists of alot of explaining the concepts on my part. Tonight, however, it didn't. Her assignment tonight, the point of us starting these blogs, and something that she will continue to do is to read the blogs here. Some of the ones I follow and any other she can find. I want her to have as firm of a grasp on these ideas and concepts as I do.
Throughout the discussion one thing rang clear, we both want to delve deeper into this, and we won't let the distance stop us.
Throughout all of this, all of our kinks, all of our deep hidden desires, I know one thing for sure about when I come back.
The first thing I'm going to do is get us a hotel room, a dozen roses, a bottle of bubble bath, and leave the rope at home (Or maybe hide it until round two.)
At one point she asked me "Why do *you* want a D/s relationship, sir?"
The answer she says she had expected.
"Because the level of trust it requires is amazing, and I love that we trust one another that deeply. The fact that we do it always keeps our lives interesting both in and out of the bedroom. The idea of it has always been a kink of mine. Lastly, the amount of love shown when someone gives the gift of submitting to another completely is romantic beyond any amount of roses I could ever buy."
I'm counting down the days now, Tuesday night I leave for my 1 AM flight. I already miss her. I plan on seeing her one more time before I leave though, and can't wait for that.
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